There is this one verse that seems to constantly come into my life time and time again, 2 Corinthians 5:17. The verse reads, Therefore, if anyone is in Christ, the new creation has come: The old has gone, the new is come!” I remember studying this verse at church camp, hearing it at the end of one of my favorite songs in middle school, and many times in between. This verse oozes hope and encouragement, but I must admit this verse has been hard within my life lately.

God offers us new life when we accept Him, but we have to let go of ourselves, our past, our control and let Him take the reins. As I set out to write this blog post, I realized that I have been resisting God as He is simply answering my prayer. I have been asking God this past year to break me down and mold me into who He wants me to be. I am asking Him to help me to put the old aside and step into the new person that He is calling me to be. This past year has been a year that God has reshaped me in major ways, and it has been truly incredible. Looking back a year ago I am not even close to the same person as I type this. I am so grateful that God has continuously chosen to pursue me and create a newness inside of me.

This semester God has been truly working me -- using this blog, the classes I am taking, and the people He has placed in my life to transform me completely. This week though, I realized that the next step that God has in store for me is one that I have been fighting for years. Honestly, the knowledge that God is calling me to deal with it is intimidating.

I am not a crier. Over the years, I have built walls that have stood strong in order to protect myself. For years, I have stuck to crying twice or maybe four times a year, struggling to get tears out and many times settling for shedding two tears. This semester alone, I have full-on cried or sobbed at least six times. All of these were healthy cries, a human expression of feeling emotions, but everything inside of me keeps screaming ‘no we don’t want to cry.’ 

I know that crying may not seem like a big deal, but it is what God is challenging me with. He is asking me, “Lucy are you truly letting me transform you?” I now have a decision to make. Will I let God be King over my life and transform me even when it means breaking down the walls that I built for years? Or, will I continue to remain stagnant by allowing my walls to grow taller? 

I am not content with staying stagnant. I know what my choice is, but today I am asking you “Will you allow God to take the old and bring the new in your life?”

Authored by Lucy LaMar on March 26, 2021.