Lucille’s Spiels has been a journey – a journey that I never saw coming and has grown and shaped me in ways I could never imagine. Looking back on the woman I was in January, is completely different from who I am now. I started in January freaking out about a project having no idea how I would be able to accomplish everything I needed to this semester. I had to take a step back, fall on my knees, and ask the Lord to take it away. I am so incredibly glad that I gave it to Him.


I am sitting here, reflecting on this season that God has brought me through. I am in awe of everything that the Lord has chosen to do, teach, and bless me with these last few months. Looking back on the blogs I have written over the past couple of months, there is one phrase that comes to my mind. “Not because of me, but despite me.”  These blogs exist because of Him who is greater than me. Here I am, alive, and stronger because of the work that He has done and continues to do in my life. I have had some low moments these past few months, many that I have written about - learning to choose to ‘Find Joy,’ crying out ‘Lord Save Me,’ and so much more. God has broken me and shaped me to look more like Him. I am amazed at how constant the Lord has been in teaching, stretching, and growing me. Honestly, I am humbled by the fact that he chooses to continue to mold me even as I take steps that hinder my walk.


I am so excited for the next season of life that God has in store for me. I know that the Lord has a plan to mold me and shape me even more, and I am looking forward to seeing how and who God uses to do that. God has been intentional in the people and work He has done in my life this far, and I know He will continue to do that.


So, thank you. Thank you for joining me on this journey of Lucille’s Spiels. As I close this chapter, I pray that the Lord has used these spiels to grow and bless you.

Authored by Lucy LaMar on April 21, 2021.